ThE ULTimAte FeAr

I wonder sometimes why my inability to express my feelings paralyzes me so. Could it be I'm not capable of it? Or am I just afraid of the reaction I'll recieve a fter I've spilled whatever is inside of me? I think I don't believe anyone genuinely cares about what goes on inside my head and I don't believe my voice is relevant enough to be heard. I'd like to think of myself as a strong person but deep down inside I don't believe I am. Everything's all twisted and I can't unravel the pieces. Is it even worth it? I feel inadequate I don't feel like I have anything to offer someone and yeah I get a lot of attention and yeah I know men find me attractive, but what kind of consolation prize is that when I feel so unloved. Like I'm incapable of being loved.