fUckED up SiTUaiON

Even the seemingly "nice" guys have issues. I get so angry sometimes because people allow themselves to be led on. Can you really love someone so much as to ignore the pain they cause you? How much more are you supposed to take before you realize that he or she will never change, no matter how much you hang on to it, no matter how much you hope. I just feel so sad sometimes. It seems like for some people love is just as elusive as life and truth. These are the times when I feel so much older. These are the times I wonder why I am not more naive. I wish it could all be so simple you know? It seems like the older I get....the more fucked up people become. And I don't feel like I belong. My heart is too heavy. I really should stop allowing people to affect me so much. I guess maybe I'm not cut out for this. I have to be realistic about it. There is no one out there who understands me. I have to accept that.