LoNG TiMe cOMinG

I haven't been around in so long! I feel like my world's been moving so fast and I haven't had a chance to catch my breath and just . . . breathe. So many things have changed. For the better or worse I don't know, but it's good to have change. It's like I've shedded my old skin and now I'm brand new. Don't get me wrong, there are still the remnants of the old me, it just seems like a lot of things have shifted. I think for a long time I lost my voice and my ability to just be. Maybe I just lost my ability to express myself. One good thing, my addiction with John has long since passed. It really amazes me. I never really thought that I would get to this point in my life. I never really expected to not have him in it, to one day wake up and not have him pass through my mind for months at a time. But it's happened and really the only time I think of him now is when someone else brings him up. It does feel like a long time coming. . . though I don't know what I'm coming to.